It's not about me.

I am not the writer in my family, I am the talker. So I am trying to talk less and write more.
Life as a follower of Jesus, a wife, a mom, a missionary, a home school teacher, and so much more truly makes it "not about me". Most of the time I am okay with that, but I will admit there are times when I wish it could be "about me".
My goal in having an online journal is to be transparent, to be honest, and encourage you to grow in your walk with Jesus, as we/I try to make it more about "Him" our Heavenly Father, and less about me/us.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

What a day!

    Today is one of those rare days. Janelle and I are the only ones home! I appreciate days like today because they don't happen often. When one family member is missing the chemistry in the home changes.
   This is a good thing! Today Janelle and I will have a fun girls day out. We spent the morning hacking Jack's facebook, soon we will go out to town, have lunch, Janelle wants a hair cut and then off to finish her Life guarding course.
   That gives me the afternoon of just me!!!! What shall I do?? First things first, I will do what every mother would do..clean the house. Then some quiet time of reading, maybe even on the front porch. OH YA!
   Once again my back has been giving me some problems, I am wondering if my Lord is trying to tell me to make some changes in my life. I am not able to do the things I have always done, like rota til the garden, or carry a laundry basket upstairs. Some of these seem to be no brainers but some are the everyday chores of a mom. My pride gets the best of me during these times. I am a "I can do it myself" kind of person. I don't like asking for help. Pride. Pray with me as I learn to follow Jesus and learn to let go.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Day 18

  No, I was not in Jamaica for 18 days.
  I have been back from Jamaica for 18 days.
                  And what I realized in these past 18 days?  I have come to realize that the reason Jamaica was an amazing experience and the reason I grew closer to the Lord while there, and the reason I want to go back was.....Not because of the warm weather, or because of the children we blessed and were blessed by or the wonderful team that God put together...But because I spent time with my Lord each day. I had a good 30-45 mins each morning with Him, I had time each evening before bed with Him.
                  Now that I am home again, life gets ahead of me. The kids need me, meals need to be prepared, laundry needs to be done, meetings, school, cleaning, work, meals, sleep, taxiing the kids, driving lessons, Dr. appointments, meals, and on and on my list goes. (Yes, I did mention meals 3 times, they do seem to want 3 meals a day:) )
                 So when do I spend time with the Lord? Early morning? Coffee and news come first, then the kids wake, I spend a few minutes on the computer, and my day has begun! Evening before bed? My head hits the pillow and I am asleep! Life just gets too busy or do I get too busy?
                 Where and what do I change? I guess I don't need to know that the price of gas is going up, I know when I fill my tank tomorrow. Charlie Sheen needs Jesus, I don't need to know more than that do I ? I guess the news can wait, but my time with Jesus each morning can not.!!!!
              I don't need to go to Jamaica to meet with Jesus, even though it was easier with out the daily duties of life. But my I need to put Him first each and every day.
   18 days, that is how long it took me to learn this simple lesson!!